19. Not More Than I Can Handle
The penny dropped.
God has been answering my prayer. I used to think He has way more important things in His day to day than to be micromanaging the comings and goings of Sheryll O’Brien – but I’ve changed my tune a bit. In fact, I think God has been in lock step with me this entire time.
Because.
I could not handle leaving Tim and our girls without letters that needed to be written.
I could not handle leaving my mom, brother, and sister without conversations they needed as much as I did.
I could not handle leaving Hadley without a care package of things that will fill her time and remind her of me.
I could not handle traveling this road without the care and support of my doctor, my hospice team, my sisters-in-law, and my bestie.
I could not handle leaving my work unfinished or thanking the women who put me and my books front and center with polish and panache.
I could not handle leaving before I met Father Cool. If I had, I would have missed the unspoken assurances that God was hearing my prayer and He was answering it — and that I’d find that truth along the way.
I know that now. I know it because I am handling every bit of this journey — and along the way, I am being blessed with enough time to enjoy this season with the people I cherish most in the world.
With God by my side — there is nothing I can’t handle.